Generally speaking, I am fascinated with human mind and heart. Today is one of those days when I get to experience my mind’s mystery and predictability at the same time. Something happened when I came downstairs this morning (and I didn’t really know what till later in a day). I noticed that at the end of the stairway I felt sad and kind of down.
As someone who has been trained in differing my feelings successfully, I went about my day. And as someone who has been unwinding old pattern successfully (:-)) I was wondering in the back of my mind, what is going on.
Somewhere in the middle of the day (in between writing and drinking tea) I realized that I felt “crappy’ the moment I saw the blinds drawn downstairs, in the office. The blinds were drawn …so what?
Well, apparently, for my mind, it meant something, and it meant secrecy. Somehow, the drawn blinds spin me for a down spiral into my childhood and all the unspoken secrets of the family dynamic.
The moment I realized what was happening, I felt this inner WOW. I was fascinated one more time with brain’s ability to associate certain things with certain feelings based on past experiences. And after taking a few breaths, presence this discovery and feeling what is, I restored my inner joy.
And it got me thinking how in the course of my life, with my each breathes I have an opportunity to reinvent my inner universe and thus create a different reality for myself.
I can choose to create new stories or release them all at once, or live based on old beliefs, or transform them any way I choose to, and as soon as I become aware of them.
I believe we all, individually and collectively, are in a perfect spot of the evolutionary spiral, of life itself. I am simply realizing again and again how our perception of the world, rooted in ourselves (our beliefs, our growth, our patterns, etc.). And this excites me over and over again. Because it means that by changing our thoughts, our emotional and mental state, our story, we can choose how we see the world and potentially change the world we live in.
By choosing and acting out of love, we create more love in ourselves, our families and communities.
Every day of my life, I have an opportunity to evoke the world that I love living in by creating the world I love inside of me first.
What a privilege.
with Love,
Yelena
