Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Recognizing the essence or creator within.

I was born with ability to see both the visible and the energy worlds. As a kid I thought that everybody saw the world that way. I would feel and see what the plants wanted and what changes needed to be made for the fruit trees to produce more fruits. I interacted with the energy fields of nature and at some point my mom noticed that. My parents had an acre of land and  mom started asking me where to plant and what kind of vegetables and berries. By planting “goods” where they “liked to be” (that is how I explained stuff as a 4 year old) amazing results were created . My parents were able to sell so much produce that it paid off the house and we got a new car.
As a kid I painted what I saw and later realized that I saw the essence of people (the best possible version, the energetic signature). We are born as individual manifestations of love with love’s energetic signature and a unique blend of ingredients to serve and live the life we are intended to live. The vision of our essence is very pronounced in the heart.. It  also outlines the barriers that people construct to protect themselves from recognizing their magnificence.
As a kid I was surprised that the concept of war existed. Since I saw interconnectedness of all in the energy and spirit field I could not understand why would people hurt each other. It is so obvious that we are actually hurting ourselves…literally.
It took me a while to realize that physical bodies was  all that a lot of people saw. When I discovered that I felt scared as if something was wrong with me, and I started to paint more and heal with art and energy.
My ability to interact with energy allowed me to feel deep connection and the possibility of what the world would be like if we saw our essences. I imagined that if we recognized ourselves as unique manifestations of love we would act from a completely different place. The illusion of separation and “not-good-enoughness” would not exist.
We misuse the word human. Somehow we see humans as limited and flawed, or we move on to the other side of the spectrum and arrogantly claim the top of the evolutionary chain (which shows that we feel flawed and want to hide it).
The reality is that a human is an incredibly beautiful creation that holds the creator within (like everything that is). However we possess the ability to choose and really transform the world around us.
I am wondering, if we consider the possibility of self-recognition (recognizing the creator within) how our life would be different…

Thursday, January 5, 2012

My Own Magic

All of you who is reading this post unites at least one thing: you are here. :-) So am I. From the moment we born ourselves here, we experience the influence of environment and people around us. We depend on parental love, care and provision. We identify ourselves in accordance of how we perceived by  authority figures in our life.
 How many of us had parents who were/are in harmony with themselves and the world around? Who loved us unconditionally, who saw and supported our inner magic?

I imagine not overwhelmingly high number of people.
In order to receive love we often learned how we need to be, we adjusted to get the necessary attention.

We thought that if only ... they saw me/I was more like.../ if I could do...(fill the gap with yours) we will receive more love and attention, and somehow our life will be better.

I wonder if we twist our inner magic as a result. We forget we have one inside of us and it is unique to us and it is our guide in life. We want the life we want, but the twisted and adjusted magic withing us doesn't light the way as naturally as it could.

And then one day we decide to re-discover this magic, and we go inside... because that is where it lives. And so the inner journey begins.

To create our own Universe we got to find our own magic. We got to invite ourselves to know all we know about ourselves by the nature of being universe in itself.
The word reverent resonates with me today. I choose to be reverent toward myself, my inner magic, my body.
This is the only appropriate way to treat ourselves, and when we able to feel reverent about ourselves we acknowledge the true nature of who we are. The choices get simpler, the flow of inner joy restores and the tapestry of "ordinary" things seeing as a perfect playground to bring your contribution (your magic) to. At last, we create world, that is magical to us, the relationship and life that feels beyond utterly satisfying ... we live the life we meant to be living.

reverently,
Yelena